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you just might want to check that out.

Dont know what im going to do with this site right now .. but as I think about it I dont think it’s going anyplace.

Before I start this blog I would like to send my heartfelt condolences to the whole Hudson family. I cant imagine how you are feeling at this time. Keep your heads up and believe that the lord is embracing your fallen loved ones.

All this week I have been religiously following the tragic events of the Hudson family. If you didn’t hear about it (you really must have been under a rock), singer/actress Jennifer Hudson’s mother and brother were found murdered in their Chicago home (they were both shot). Jennifer’s sister, Julia’s, son went missing and then was found a few days later in their brothers stolen truck - murder. Though no one has been accused, the main suspect is Julia’s estranged husband, William Balfour (who isn’t the kids father) who already had a criminal record - attempted murder and vehicle hijacking in 1999. This story is truly sad an no one deserves to have this kind of tragic on their hands.

I understand that this is a hard time for the family, no one wants to point the blame for this (because seriously, how could you?) on anyone.  I understand that now is a time for healing.

HOWEVER,

I just cant stop thinking that this all could have been prevented. I don’t want to pass judgment on the type of woman that Julia Hudson is, because I don’t know her personally, but from what m feeling from hearing the story unfold is that she was looking for love in all the wrong places¹. I could be wrong, but I’m feeling that she had some low self esteem and when she finally found a man who “accepted” her for who she is she was happy. So happy in fact that she let a convict into her home where her mother, brother, and 7 year old son lived. I’m not saying that all convicted felons are violent, but this one was convicted of attempted murder .. yeah he didn’t kill anyone, but he attempted to.

I see it all the time around here. One of my friends with two young children came over yesterday to introduce me to her new boyfriend. I always knew this chick was a little off but that shit was just dangerous. I don’t like to judge, but when I saw him all I saw was “thug”. Then, when he opened his mouth he proved me right. Not to mention that he was high as hell when he got here. Here is my home girl with two young children - both girls, and she is running around with this dangerous dude for the sake of “love”. The strongest love a woman should have (outside of any religious love)  is the love she has for her child. The love I have for my son is so strong that if Ralph (his father) and I ever broke up I would have to screen any future love prospects heavily. I would not bring someone new into my life and ultimately my child’s life that has been deemed dangerous even in the slightest bit.

So many woman now a day are so blinded by the “well I know he had a past but the past is the past, I’m his future” bullshit. No heffa, the past is not just the past. If you don’t know his past well enough then expect a turbulent future. Don’t be desperate. Love is a great thing, but trust me you want to love the right man. Don’t give your love to someone that is dangerous and non respectful of life and the values that you have. Just because he loves you (or says he loves you) isn’t reason enough to let that man into your life. A lot of woman need to wake up and smell the got damn coffee. Value and love yourself before you give your love to any man. When you love yourself first you’ll be able to weed out the bullshit from the caviar.

And again, please look into your mans past - because it could give a chilling view of your future.

Gotta love the Backstreet Boys but if you believe the “As long as you love me” theory, then you are lost as hell my dear. I’ll pray for you ok?

* WOW! Motherhood is on everyone’s plate this year huh? Shouts to Shine and little “Aliana”, Shannon and little “Sylvia”, Markeyah and little “Caleb” . Also shouts to future mommies Azalea (who’s due any day now) and my girl Faith (due in feb.)

WARNING! This is graphic. Weak stomached people need NOT to go on with reading. You have been warned!

The birth story AKA ” What they WONT show you on the Discovery Channel or TLC”

Bryan Edmond Thomas | Born 9-9-08 @ 6:14 pm | 9lbs 4oz.

Me, a mommy. Who would have seen that coming … well I can say all of my close friends because they know just how deep Ralph and I are in LOVE. We are even deeper in love over the birth of our son, Bryan. You NEVER feel a love as strong as the one you feel for your child. Every sappy love song that you equate to a man somehow feels right in explaining the love you have for your child. Example, Chris Brown - With You. I tear up every time I hear that song. That is Ralph and I’s song but now when I hear It I think of Bryan “With every kiss and every hug you make me fall in love” .

Bringing that little big boy into the world wasn’t easy though. As I stated in my last post my labor had to be induced because he was getting too big inside of me. I’m diabetic and diabetics usually give birth to big ass babies so they decided to get him out of me at 38 weeks instead of 40 (which is still full term anyway). Here is the story, blow by blow. I’m not leaving any stone unturned in hopes of shedding light on some of the more “nasty” aspects of the birthing process .. the shit you DON’T see on TV. click to read more »